Fighting for a space under the bar

My brains is full of rambling thoughts. I find myself questioning where I fit in when it comes to photography. What do you do when what you are good at isn't popular or greatly desired? I am a fine art, documentary photographer. I can take portraites, fashion type photos but I shine at documentary and fine art. My friends are all models and moms. Funny thing is those who do have kids (which I seem to specialize in) don't ask for me to shoot their kids or take me up on the offer either. They are so buizy trying to get half naked or published in a online mag. They use photographers who are not any good with family work to shoot their kids or pragnacy cause the photographer got published in a small online mag. These are memories, frozen moments in time. Its like being hispanic walking into taco bell and having someone asian make you a taco when grandma is at home with a plate of fresh from scratch tacos waiting for you. The internet is soo decieving on who is really sucessful and who is faking it. I think this is my year to find myself as and artist, not trying to figure out what people will like but what I like. I am sitting here with tears in my eyes but they won't fall. I feel so uninspired, frustrated and overwhelmed. I need to stop fighting for a space under the bar and shoot to soar past it.